More than Nothing Less than All

It’s not just the what are my optimal inputs and outputs but also what  dosage of these inputs and outputs works for my vitality levels?

Like, how much time working at what intensity level and what time of day works best for me? The conversation I don’t want to have but need to have should best be addressed when? A) ASAP, B) After a snack and nap, c) Never, D) the next day.

The tricky part — at least for me — is that the answer changes depending on a lot of factors — hormones, weather, sleep, worry, my kid’s mood, external stuff outside my control, to name a few.

So I can’t just “set it and forget it.” My routines, my expectations, have to have some flexibility to account for the fact that I’m not a robot and my life is not a manufacturing facility. Then AGAIN if I let go of all commitments and drifted where the wind took me I’d lose the joy of building, growing, rooted-ness, all that kind of stuff.

So, balance, kindness in the firm and soft versions is indicated, allowing myself and those around me to be human beings having a human experience which is inherently full of variation and change. I’m gonna keep going.