It’s OK to be OK

I hereby give myself permission to not be angry, sad, disgruntled, affronted or offended at whatever comes my way.  It’s ok to be ok with it all.   This is not license to spiritually bypass real feelings, but rather an official recognition that something has shifted for me and I might as well ... enjoy it.  Keep going.

I’m okay.  I’m okay.  Sure I can get annoyed, sad, whatever, but I know it will pass.  It’s not a resting place.  How very interesting. 

My friend Sunshine worried that my lack of upset-ness over something might mean I would get walked all over.  But no, I will continue to stand up for what I believe is right and for what I need, with patience, tolerance, kindness, and love.  I can stand up without the fuel of hot emotions.  

It’s just standing.  And most of the time, I can stand down.  I know I can protect if I need to, but right now I don’t need to.  I don’t need to be constantly on guard.

I’m okay, and I’ll admit it to you even though it makes me scared you will think I’ve gone nuts.  I’m ok with being scared.  I’m ok with you thinking whatever you’re gonna think.  Holy crap.

There is so much to be not okay about in this world, but me being not okay wouldn’t make it any better, and I’d spend my time being not okay.  So I’m done with that.  

No more drama, fantasy, distraction.  Living, really living, every minute.

I’m gonna keep going.