Home Day One/Yoga Teacher Training Week Four, Day One/Antibiotics Round Three, Day One: More Dance Parties!

  So there’s me, then there’s my thoughts and feelings, my senses, my experience of life, plus book-learning kinds of things, and then there’s all this energy stuff working on me and through me and around me ... and this energy stuff is a whole universe, or universes and universes, vast oceans of understanding and knowledge that I have almost no conscious learning about, or experience with.

How awesome is that!?!

They totally didn’t teach me this stuff in law school. Or kindergarten. Though I kinda wish someone had.

Like, duh, I can change my own energy. Like duh, my inputs, the who, what, where, when, why, how’s of it all affect me. A lot. I’m not a rock, or an island. I’m a porous magnetic sponge surrounded by other porous magnetic sponges and we all sort of feed each other, and feed off each other. We affect each other. I affect you and then around and around we go.

I knew that! But I guess I didn’t know it know it, like it’s a thing. Like if I want to feel more up, a living room dance party works for me. Or if I want to feel more grounded, I might need a ... living room dance party. Or a bath, or a walk, or a bowl of soup. Or .... there’s stuff.

Or maybe I don’t need all that, need all that. Maybe I could kind of think it, imagine it into what it would feel like? Take myself there ... energetically? I’m still a bit murky on this part.

There’s just so much I don’t know. So much more I don’t know than I do know. Like when 3-year-old Ax said to Mike, “I know you from when you were a baby.” Or when 4-year-old me asked my mom, “Are we real or are we a movie?”

I don’t know. I don’t know why I’ve been sick with this virus-ish thing for so long. I don’t know. There are so many good-sounding theories. So many.

So I’m trying something else now. I’ve been being so good this week too. Getting lots of rest and using the humidifier. But maybe what’s really been indicated is more living room dance parties. It’s a theory.

I’m gonna keep going!!!!