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Court Miracles

As a quasi-agnostic, I don’t love the word miracles, but it has a much better ring to it than “really unexpected good things.”  Court Surprisingly Good Things.  Nope, doesn’t do it the same way. And when I look at the world through wonder-colored glasses, miracle-courting glasses, it’s a much better place to be.

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The Flow Feeling

There’s a character who’s on my side completely, on the side of my higher, more ephemeral self.  The self that’s stronger than Evie, the evil inner critic, stronger than Princess Wah Wah, the inner grandiose victim, and bigger than Jenna, the merry domestic goddess.

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This House is Healing

Honestly, at the peak of the flea situation I was ready to get rid of Cleo.  Not permanently, just while she got de-flea’d.   I know this thought makes me a bad cat person, possibly a bad person in general.  But I’ve always considered myself a dog person who is too lazy and selfish to take care of dogs and therefore has a cat.

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Evolution Happens

It’s been 8 days since my last post, probably the longest break I’ve had in three years.  I thought about posting, I even wrote some titles, but didn’t give myself the tiny amount of focused time it takes to complete one.  For all kinds of good reasons of course. And then I wonder why it was a turbulent week.

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Not Enough-itis

The cure for not enough-itis is not more, it’s a change in perspective.  I know that, and you probably know that, and yet not enough-itis still creeps in if unattended.   And there’s a culture of consumption that encourages the (diseased) way of thinking that more will lead to — peace? Happiness? Safety? A sense of worthiness?

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Prayers for Safety

We’re so lucky sometimes it’s hard to fathom.  Like today, we have heat for our home, clean water to drink, healthy food to eat, even  chocolate.   The grey sky outside is morning mist, not smoke, I’m pretty sure, and we are safe.  At this moment we are safe.

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The New Normal

There’s a fire a few towns  south of us and a really big fire north of us, far north.   My friend Jazmine evacuated  to our place the night before last and hung out at our kitchen table most of the day trying to work from her laptop pretending to be normal.

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The Bird Show

I’m sitting on the new white sectional watching little black birds fly against the pale grey white early morning misty sky.  A gang of black flapping dots, cruising around, doing their thing. I used to watch this bird show all the time from my favorite morning chair, but then when we got the new white sectional, the new white sectional went where the old chair used to be and the old chair moved to a different place altogether.  A place comfortable enough to sit and write, but with no view of the bird show.  

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Election Day!

There have been mass extinction events before and yet history continued.  There has been suffering and racism and toxic air and genocide before and history has continued.   Doesn’t mean I like those things or the people who promote those things.  Doesn’t mean I won’t fight those things and feel grateful for the privilege to do so.

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Truth

Whoever thought truth would be a controversial concept?  But I don’t need to worry about you too much.  Not before I mind my own beeswax and get clear on what’s true for me. What’s true for me is I care more about people than stuff.  That my life is rich because my family and I can afford to get help when we’re sick, food when we’re hungry, shelter when we’re tired, and education when we want to learn.  We are rich because we get to give time and a little money to help others.  What a privilege.

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The World is My Rave

Today, the day after Halloween, is like the Thursday night of my long-gone clubbing days.  It’s the day when the real freaky people come out to play.   Friday night and Saturday night are for amateurs, tourists, and office workers.  Thursday night is for people who care more about play than whatever happens the next day.

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Happy Halloween!

I’m looking forward to a sober Halloween, where I can enjoy everyone else’s shenanigans and know that Ax and I will be home safe and in bed at a reasonable hour.  He’ll get to have five candies this evening, and one a day for a week after that.  Then we’ll dispose of the remainder. He understands that the limits come from love, from wanting him to have a healthy, long, fabulous life.  He gets that a little candy once in a while is okay, but too much can take his strength and power away.  And he doesn’t want that either.

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Time to Paint

I’ve been staring at the big blank white wall in our living room for a while now, wondering what kind of painting would look best there.  I can see a lot of options, color schemes, scenes, moods, in my mind’s eye. I thought I’d settled on one that had stuck with me for quite a while.  I was ready to buy the big canvas and get to work in my backyard art studio (the yard, with a tarp on the ground).

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